You know, you have always been my one great love. You showed me something that I didn’t see in anyone. You’ve always seen my positive side, the ones that the crowd would rarely see. A different side of me, a different perspective of my self, a different me. I’ve learn to trust you, in any ways possible. Supported you, even if the support isn’t much needed. Gave myself up for you so you could feel whole again. All of this I have done just so you could feel and see that I am here, with open arms, willing to take you back over and over and over again. I still remember how I cried over you in the rain. I felt the sky crying for me for I can no longer shed anymore tears for my eyes can no longer weep. I felt the whole world crashing, bits and pieces. I felt everything, I felt every tiny atoms inside of me falling apart. It hurts to know that you are gone and that you can never really come back. It hurts to know that I have lost myself more than I have lost you. You have taken away everything from me because you knew it was all for you and you have given yourself the freedom to catch my broken pieces so you could fill up your own empty ones. And now, five years have passed, I feel a little better than before. You have found your missing piece. While I’m here also trying, trying, and trying to find what could possibly fill the empty spaces in me. You’re still you, I heard but I don’t care anymore. You talk to me through messenger but it won’t bring up the pain again. The rain won’t make me cry again. And I guess I have finally decided to choose to let go of what’s holding me back to be happy and it’s not you after all, it’s the fear of being not good enough for someone.
It’s been a while since I’ve updated anything here in the blog. I’ve been having a hard time balancing my time for my day job, school and the blog. I’ve been wanting to write about so many things, so many places and food and so much more. I’ll make it up to you guys 🙂
I hope you have no problem with balancing your time too, set your priorities and plan ahead. A good way to achieve something is to have a plan.
Will be posting soon! Thank you & I love you ❤️
Ps, here’s what the beach after sunset looked like:
On a serious note.
2016 has been one of my character building moment. It has molded me to become stronger through life’s poignant adversities, failures that I have encountered and mistakes that proved to be inevitable in some circumstances. It taught me that you won’t get what you want and need unless you work hard for it. If you still fail but gave your all, then it is basically okay. Needless to remind that a Great Divine Providence will work His power upon you, in His own free and most perfect time.
2016 has the most number of pages read including reviewers, reference books and even fictional ones. Truly, one reason I call myself a nerd.
2016 also paved the way to meeting new acquaintances hence creating new circle of friends. I learned to value friendship not on years spent with but with moments rendered.
2016 has also painted color to my life through the amazing places I have been to for the first time and for nth time. It gave me a new perspective towards life together with its delicate features and surprises laid upon and yet to unfold to us and to me.
To the ones I call family, friends and inspiration. A Happy New Year to you all.